[daNieL]^[tauFik]^[aNdvBa|L]^r.a.w.k.s.

feeling hurt. sad. lost.

2005-07-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

hais really v sad. if only u were more sensitive.. hais. i wan more attention.. care.. hai. i miss e old times. when we cud talk on fone for long hrs n nv run out of topics.. now.. wana talk on fone oso diff.. meet oso diff.. msg even more diff. hais. v hurt. v neglected. y muz things bcum lidat.. i wna remain happy tgtr.. i wana remain num 1.. i wana b rite on top.. i wana b e most impt.. i wana b l.v.d e most. hais. too bad. u oso wun c tis. so wads e pt of writin. hais. i really miss e earlier days. wen we were much happpier tgtr. can it really last..?

in a daze.

2005-06-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

hais feeling so lost now. in total shock. i tot it wud b never ending.. now.. it might not b true. hais. i really duno wad to do. it doesnt seem 2b enuf. hais. im so scared i'l b lke her. losin n nv havin it back agn. im so scared. really v scared. how m i goin to survive if tat really happens. hais. kp cryin after knowin tat. but * din noe. din sense anytink. hais. im so scared tat i wud b e one causing myself e unhappiness. * now say wun leave.. but in future, if * really feels tat * has no freedom, * wil stil leave.. hais. duno la. v confused. v scared. stil in shock. cant believe wad a failure i m. i really cant lose *.. i really cant.. hais im scared.. really v scared..

hais. hurts..

2005-03-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

hais. kinda hurts wen i was told to leave * alone.. i mean.. i noe i cant relate to wad * was feeling.. n * really needed time to b alone.. to tink abt e past.. i urdstd.. but it juz hurts i guess.. hais. my <3 aches for *.. how i wish i cud take away all e pain * is feeling.. hais.

hais. lost.

2005-02-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

I HATE SERENE

2005-01-31T17:40:00.000+08:00

wth. i hate her. YUCKS!! so disgustin. wad a bitch. hope she rots in hell. ARGH!! cant stand her. WTH. do i really hav to msg her in frenster. fucker. im pissed. she tink i transparent wan isit. or she juz bu ba wo fang zai yen li. bitch. attached le stil lidat. wth. FLIRT. BITCH.

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid bitch. duno wads e meanin of taken. ARGH!!!!

agst evergreen

2005-01-31T17:34:00.001+08:00

ha juz now agst evergreen. 1st set we kp tiu fen. after tat 2nd set. woo hoo~ thrash game. hahaha. n wads best abt tat was tat i served alot!! ha. i rmbr time out was at 14-7. we leadin. b4 timeout i was serving le. after tat served til 24-7. hahaha. so proud of myself. althou is not my servin zai but is they not v gd. ha. but im stil hapie. i v bao wo!! lol. yea. ha. todae chiu gan stil not too bad. ha. hmm. tml agst amk. we're gona win!! yea. we're gona b v bao wo. definitely.

b girls jiayou~! we're gona b in top 4.

I HATE SERENE

2005-01-31T17:34:00.000+08:00

suay. ha.

2005-01-22T09:40:00.000+08:00

haha. ytd wen to watch Fighter In The Wind. not bad. ha. got one chiobu. den somebody there meltin.. idiot. hahas. even saw a guy took out his camera to take pic of e chiobu. lol. GUYS. hahas. after tat walk to far east find dem.. suay seh. saw coach on e way there. wads worst is he saw me. lol. he sure tink i e day b4 nv go trnn cuz sick is fake. ha. but i was sick los. stil fever lehs. ha. den went walk walk.. pool. ha. adele evil. laugh at me. lol. e others playin pool den i was sittin at e seats n starin into space wen i heard adele laugh. tink she hit me or sth i cant rmbr but i look at her den she keep laughin. lol. idiot. kp askin her laughin at wad.. haha. den she say wad my feet v funny.lol. cuz the pool place got music den as i was starin into space my toes were wrigglin to e music. lol. i din noe lor. haha.habit le. lol. den she keep laughin i oso keep laughin den alan there keep askin her wad happen she juz laugh. lol. idiot. but ytd was fun. hahas. DUSTBIN! hahahs. lol. kiddin. keke. sian den ytd come home le cudnt slp. tink i slp at 11plus den woke up at 2. after tat cudnt slp. i tink til 5plus fel aslp. den idiot mum woke me up at 6. after tat cannot slp le. lol. muz b e coffee milk i drank. haha. den studied from 7.30 wor.. hahas. i so guai. lol. tata.

sianz sick

2005-01-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

hai todae sick. damn sianx. stil went to sch. den din go trnn. went home slp. fever. bleahs. keep goin toilet. haha. tink i went at least 10 times for todae le. lol. hmm slept for 4 hrs.. now lke no fever le.. but duno wil come back not later.. bleahs. now flu n headache.. hai gang kor. bleahs. i wan to b ok tml... i wan go watch movie healthily. haha. hai sian. i dun wan to hav flu.. bleahs. duno wad to say oso le.. tata.

todae was a special dae.. =]

2005-01-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

hmm. todae went woodlands library study.. n many tinks happened. heex. a special dae.

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cant stand u.

2004-12-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

i really bth u lors. dun urdstd how cum wen we havin fun we can fun lke siao but so easily bu shuanh each other. wth. u owaes sae u bth me. ren me v long liao. bu shuang me. u tink only u wil bu shuang ar?? u tink only u got temper ar?? kns. owaes is i kp ppl not ppl kp me de lor. wth. u owaes lidat. i oso ren u v long liao. but i nv show u only. but u owaes lidat. f-ed up attitude. wth. i udn tink e prob owaes lies wit me lor. everytime we quarrel.. even if not my fault i oso wil apologise to u. now u lidat. walau i really feel lke callin u a bitch. yes i m TAT pissed off. but ur my fren so i wun cal u tat. i tle u lor e prob is wit u lors. alot of times ppl bu shuang u but u duno lors. u owaes tink u r owaes rite den giv tat stupid attitude. ppl damn bth de lors. idiot. todae morn u oso pissed jingyi off u noe tat?? bet u din. u make grace cry, whose fault is tat? dun tel me is grace's. u kp me, whose fault is tat? i admit mayb my tone was too harsh but i hardly c grace cry de lor. i c she cry i of cuz wil concerned. she my fren since sec 1. close fren. i really bth u. i hope nationals faster end cuz sometimes i really cant stand bein in e same team wit u. ur attitude totally pisses me off.

haiz

2004-12-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmm. juz now after hearin all those u said, i really v heartpain 4 ur mom. 4 u oso. 4 e r/s btw u both. i tink my heart wil break if in e future my own son said tat of me. hmm. guess i said enuf juz now le. n u oso realised e gd pts ur mummy hav le. so i guess everytink's ok le. hmm. nex time ur pissed abt her.. rmbr to tink of her gd pts n tat u love her k?.. =)

hai ytd agst sqs. sucked big time. totally sucked. i duno wads wrong wit our team
hais. sorta giv up le. n thur got frenly agst woodlands ring. fri agst orchid park. hopefully we play beta n win los. hmm.

MeRrY cHriStMas!!

2004-12-25T01:56:00.000+08:00

hahas. its christmas! e time is 12.57. hahas. hmm. juz now (or rather ytd?? hahas.) went orchard wit limei, grace, jingyi, von . michelle. hahas. girls nite out. it was fun.. took neoprints twice. i lke e picS!! ahhas. den saw jap guys wor.. shuai ge. den take pic of dem oso. hahahs. nice wor.. one of dem really v shuai. i notice 1st de lors.. den limei grace jingyi mich n von all copy me. hai. no originality. HAHAHAH. lols. anw piggie i not puttin their pic on frenster le. cuz i rather put e pics i took wit my frenz. hahhas. its e truth. (^-^)

after tat we walk walk den sth suay happened. sth of mine snapped. hahahs. den went pizza hut at PS. long queue manx. but we stil waited. hahas. ate alot. cudnt finish. lol. took lotsa pics wit mich's digi cam too. cant wait to c dem n put on frenster!! hahahahs. lol. althou i dun look nice. ha. hmm. saw chanel n other NV b gals after tat. den went home le. mummy scold. bleahs.

OH YA!!! i missed out sth v impt!! I BOUGHT A MAMBO PANTS!! hahahhas. i tink is called khaki pants? i duno. but its long n green color. hahas. nice. i lke. n it cost $79.90 but bcuz got 60% off, i bought it for only $32. whahahahhaa. cheap rite???? hahahhas. lol. im a lucky gal. hahahs. luke dun b jealous kz.. hahahhas. =p

hais. juz talked on fone wit him. a long talk..

2004-12-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

hais. juz had a long talk on e fone wit him. cant believe e bad impression ppl hav of me. his frenz warned him tat i was a flirt. hais. i mean.. i din expect ppl outside my sch to tink tat lors.. hais. i'm not offended.. cuz they noe nuts abt me. but.. it stil doesnt feel gd lars. hais.

den we talked abt alot of stuff.. he at 1st mood v low.. cuz of parents n stress n stuff.. after tat i finally managed to get him to laugh.. hmm quite hapie n relax le.. den suddenly go talk abt those stuff.. cry. hai. feel so silly now. but cudnt control myself. duno y. muz b pms. hais. sucks. now im not juz a crybaby im oso petty n flirt. hais. how did tinks bcame lke tis?..

petty.. i nth to sae. i tink i m too althou i dun wan to. flirt.. hais. i duno. hais. some gd impression i leave on ppl man. hais. if we [d][a][e][t][s] xms ppl wil oso tink tat wun last n i pei bu shang. hais. i hate tis feeling. being wrongly accused (or rather, tot of) but yet i cant take offense cuz i din exactly present a clean record myself. hais. duno la. sure as hell doesnt feel gd.

hais. v confused now. cant arrange my tots. everytink's a blur. everytink puzzles me. i wan to tink abt everytink yet nth. hais. duno. but i wil try to chg. my pettyness for one tink. hais i hate tat word. petty. YUCKS. n its used 2 describe me. OMG. hais. hais abt e bad impression of me ppl hav.. i cant do anytink abt it. but i'l try as hard as i can to prove to ppl tat my nex r/s is one tats gona last. I AM NOT A FLIRT. hais.

n pls hav more faith in me.. my feelins.

hais. skills stil suck..

2004-12-22T15:03:00.000+08:00

hais. morn trnn todae. skills stil suck. hais. played agst boys. 3 sets e score all damn lousy. wth. dun urdtsd y we lidat. once lose a pt den our morale damn low. den start to lose more pts. hais. sucky. lidat no nd tink abt nationals nex yr liaos. hai. sucks. how to prevent tis??? hais. prevent continuous losin of pts. hais.

wanted to study after trnn. den shaun xiu qing keep askin us go orchard oso. in e end von cudnt resist temptation. hais. y so no determination to study de u. n stil so ai wan. sec 4 liao lehs. stil dun wan study. make excuse abt nex yr no chance go orchard. hais. really cant stand u some times. muz dong shi le wad. hai. dun wan sae u le la.

hmm. i was too harsh?

2004-12-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

hmm. juz now tat someone msg me to apologise. mayb i was too harsh bax. to sae til lidat in blog. but. hais. i all alon felt lidat. hmm. duno la. tml c how. hais. i wan play wel..

im stressed.

2004-12-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

hais trnn sucked. i sucked. totally sucked. i was so stressed all e time. they feel tat i stress dem. but dey stress me too. hais. i keep tiew fen. so stressed out. givin myself alot of pressure le. hais. den she giv me tat fucked up attitude.

i really hate tat fucked up attitude of urs sometimes. owaes tink ur rite. tink tat u'l nv b wrong. dun accept ppl's critisms. wen i tiew fen, stressed enuf liao u stil niao me. wtf lors. u sae i stress u. u duno how much u stress me.

hais. keep tiew fen. feel as thou bring down e whole team. hais. cried. no one to turn to 4 comfort. cuz no one urdstd or even knew e stress i was goin thru. no one even sensed it. cudnt msg piggie oso. hais. juz went home w/o waitin 4 von. i din wan to c tat someone's face.

i feel special.. hehex..

2004-12-20T23:22:00.003+08:00

hmm.. juz chat on msn wit grace n xy. haz. talked abt mich e thingy. hahahs. funny seh. humjikukus. hahahs. interestin. lol. grace is mean. wan him suffer. lol. hahahs. funnie.. tinks r gona get much more interestin.. lol. den me n grace there tellin stories. hahas. best seh our muo qi! hahas. a.N.d.v.B.a.|.L.r.a.W.k.s.

hmm. xy told me tat. abt special feelins n abt from last yr. oh my. i nv knew tat. hear xy sae liaos.. i felt so special. hahas. lke.. so sweet. haz. i cant believe it. i mean.. ya. hahahs. den hum ji kuku. dun dare add me durin june. now den add. haz. hmm. i wonder. if xy had added me den.. wud tinks hav stil turned out tis way?.. wud it hav been for e beta? or e worst?.. hmm. but nvm. now is now. haz.

hmm. i really hope i m special to u. n ur feelins to me r diff from towards e others. i duno y. but i juz.. wan.. haz nvm. no pt sayin now. tink im askin too much oso. heex.

hmm. den wen u told me tat. i tot of alicia keys' song "karma".

[waD gOes aRd coMes aRd..]
[iTs ca|Led KarMa BabY n iT cOmes aRd..]

hmm. u noe wad i mean? how i relate wad u told me to tis?.. hahas. feel as thou im bein silly n lame. but nvm. i juz wanted to sae tis out. hahas. =p

hmm.

2004-12-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

hmm. since u c liao den i remove it liaos. in case ppl whu shudnt c c. ha.

went BK to study..

2004-12-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

hmm. bought fal's xmas prez le. hahas. hmm. not bad la i tink. hahas. passin e prez to him tml. hmm. joce comin trnn tml. so pass her her's tml oso. hmm. hope joce ruyi n chenghan wil lke their prez. hahas. i noe its sorta lame. but hopefully is meaningful to dem. hahas.

hmm. studied at BK wit xu yang. hahas. funie. todae keep laughin at her. lol. "eh! here got nokia shop arhs?! i stil went to orchard lehs." hahahas. lol. cudnt stop laughin juz now. haha. i was bonkers todae. kept laughin. lols. den both of us so pathetic in BK. both hungry wana eat. but not enuf money. hahas. hmm. din study much. ha. todae was fun.

im bored..

2004-12-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

hais so sianz. no mood study at all. hais. i wan trnn.

ytd went watch ocean's twelve. YUCK. so borin. i mean. ok lar not tat bad. but not as nice as expected. grace chua stil gave it 4 out of 5 bites. i dun tink its tat gd. ya. den after tat go walk walk at far east. haha luke pierce his ear. not bad. hmm den got c my bro oso. hahaha.

hais sianz. now sch gona start le. tink tat im facin O's nex yr. im sorta freaked out. den oso din make use of tis hols to study. im even more freaked out. hais. wad a slacker. sucks.

yucks...

2004-12-16T18:16:00.000+08:00

but honestly.. e more i c e "A", e more i find it ugly.. eeewww.. spoil my blog.. yuck.. somebody help me take it away... hais..

joyce thanx arh....

2004-12-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

hais. ask my sis help me chg my template she chg til now lidat. hmm. not bad rite taufik's pic. but ar. can c all e wierd 'A' everywhere. lol. stupid. muz ask ruyi help me chg. ha. my sis stil tel me treat it as decoration. lol. den now she tink i blame her. den fight wit me. now run into rm cry. lol. joycelyn teo i m NOT blamin u n i DIN sae is ur fault. ha. silly lehs u. u tink too much la. stupid girl. ha.

trnn rawked

2004-12-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

oh man trnn rawked todae.. lol.. so fun.. me so on form! hahas.. den hit 182's head wen free spikin.. lols. funnie.. hahas. im hapie mans.. i hav touch todae!! lol. i hope i cont lidat.. improve more oso.. yea.. avb jiayou.. n i hope my "cockiness' not so bad.. n wun cause my teammates so much stress le.. yea..

e talk

2004-12-13T20:03:00.000+08:00

hais i din noe playin wit me actu gave dem so much stress. hais. tis sucks. bein alousy player is stressful. now bein a gd player.. oso stressful. cuz ppl feel stress wen playin wit u. wth. hais. even limei feel stress wen she's playin wit me. she's e team cap n e best player sum more. shucks. n i dun even mean to giv my teammates stress. i dun hav e intention at all. they juz feel stress wen playin wit me. sucks. duno wad to do liao. den limei said im too zi wo. i guess tat means over confident? cocky? wth. i hate e word cocky. its sucks. hais. bein shoot lidat in front of all of dem oso sucks. but wadeva. tats e only way i'l chg. hel. i nv even realised i was cocky. she compared me to chenhan. wth. tat is real cocky. von doesnt tink i am. i dun even tink i m. i admit i may b discriminatin at times but i dun tink i m TAT cocky. hais. duno la. hav to chg. den oso cannot use vulgar words. cuz limei dun wan me to. i mean. i noe gals not supposed to sae in e 1st place la. ha. but i oso din really bothered ma. but aiya. she sae til lidat. i hav to stop lo. i mean. gd 4 me oso la. ha. hais. i can do it. i hope.

sorie piggie. too rash juz now. i din hav e rite to b angry at all. dun tink im petty kz. im not. at least i hope im not. n i try not to b. ha.

todae was funny. von jumped set in NTUC. HAHAHA. there were xmas decorations. balls hangin from e ceilin. she go jump set one of e ball. e ball drop. haha. alot of noise sum more. lol. tat was e funniest. alot of other funny stuff oso. todae keep laughin. ha. fun.

piggie so sweet

2004-12-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

hais he's so sweet.. i duno wad else to sae le.. juz tat he's sweet.. heex.. 10 mths.. hmm..

piggie..

2004-12-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

piggie.. im sorie.. really am.. hope u truly urdstd..

9th dec..

2004-12-09T11:14:00.000+08:00

hmm so fast 9th le.. haven started studyin.. hais.. muz start liaos.. if not nex yr sure die.. den todae no trnn.. me stil goin orchard.. nv stay home study.. ha.. bought xmas prez ytd.. but haven buy finish.. hahas von told me fal buyin 4 me.. lol.. den die die dun wan tel me wad he buy.. cuz i duno wad to buy 4 him.. lol.. hmm.. tml shud b goin pri sch tchr de xmas party bax.. lookin 4ward to seein mingying n pei en.. but not lookin 4ward to bringin chicken wings there.. lol.. so ma fan.. haz..
hmm.. saw his blog.. hais make me feel so guilty.. but.. aiya.. hais duno la.. i once promised tat i wudnt stead after O levels.. cuz of derrick.. he affected my studies.. n i dun wan to get e same lousy grades agn for my Os.. which was y after i broke wit him.. i din wan to stead til after Os.. i even told von to stop me if i was tempted to stead nex yr.. hais.. so even if i do lke him.. wad can i do?.. i mean.. hais.. yes i'l b really tempted to b tgtr wit e guy i lke.. but i cant let my studies go downhill agn.. bcuz i cannot promise tat i'l b able to stead yet achieve good grades at e same time.. hais.. but after juz now went out wit him n von.. hais it was nice bein wit him.. weneva go out wit him.. standin nex to him.. i owaes feel v protected.. i dun hav to worie abt anytink at all.. i nv felt tis way at all wit my other exs.. but.. hais.. he said he loved his ex all equally.. i duno if tis is a gd or bad tink.. gd may be cuz he wil love totally.. but bad bcuz.. hais mayb im selfish but if i do stead wit him i want to b e one he love e most.. hais i duno.. i tink i wud hav rather he din love all equally.. hais i duno.. piggie.. if u decide to giv up after u read tis.. den im fine wit it.. cuz.. even rite now.. i duno wad my feelins r n i duno wad i can giv u.. i mean.. i tink i noe wad my feelins 4 u wil b eventually.. but im stil not tat sure.. hais i duno lar.. i guess e decision is up to u los...

if^he^really^gives^up^...^will^i^regret^it^?..

+` confused`+

hahas edit my frenster profile.. 06 dec..

2004-12-06T18:30:00.000+08:00

hahas.. duno y.. but v sian juz now.. so went yo edit my frenster profile juz now.. ha.. ruyi!! tat time keep niao me go chg.. now i chg le k.. haha.. v long.. lols.. oso duno y i wrote so much stuff.. but.. ya.. heex..
ytd singapore agst johor.. men..me went to b scorer.. ha.. stress siaa.. lol.. e stupid referee dun care abt e scorer de.. kao.. b4 each set start he nv sae e jersey num 4 e diff positions.. den substitutions so fast.. we dun even noe a new player went in he kena sub out liao.. idiot.. hai my scoresheet so messy.. n tats not cuz i lousy lo.. not all la.. hahas.. lol..but was fun.. haha i got e shirt le.. lol..look 4ward to doin a proper scorer duty lehs.. heex..anw sing won..3-2.. they din play v well.. johor is lao ren dui they stil play til lidat.. hmm..
yea todae got sum touch bac.. althou arm stil pain.. den supposed to lift weights cuz rain.. so i told zp.. he put e 4.5kg weight on my elbow.. den hold it there.. heavy seh.. but really helped.. arm not tat bad le.. ha..
hmm.. wed duno shud pon trnn not lehs.. morn trnn.. cuz got 2/6 gatherin at sentosa.. hmm..

hais mai got into youth team.. josephine n jia ling oso.. hais shuang.. i oso wan.. hai.. i used to tink tis dream was lke so far away.. now one of my frenz actu got in.. e dream suddenly bcums so real.. so possible.. hais.. i wan to get in oso.. national team seh..

luke jiayou okies.. u can get bac ur touch n position de.. goldfish support u all e way.. ha.. jiayou!

scorer over le

2004-12-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

hais tired sia tis few daes.. go home late.. slp late.. wake up early.. not enuf slp seh.. lucky scorer course finally over le.. haha tis morn e exam.. i 4got to tabulate sum stuff.. lol.. cham.. hopefully nex time stil got chance to do scorer.. heex.. tml nite i oso doin.. volunteer de.. hehex.. singapore vs johor i tink.. shud b fun seh.. ha..do wit mia.. im excited.. lols..

joce u take care of ur leg kz.. sorie i nv msg u or wad.. really v bz n tired tis few daes.. but i got updates on ur condition everynite de.. so dun worie.. haha.. u take care kz.. get well soon.. ruyi u beta take care of her properly hor! haha.. u oso take carex kz.. hardly c ur now.. stupid zp..

hmm.. actu scorin is fun.. easy oso.. ha.. tml gettin e scorer shirt! lol.. hmm.. muz start buyin christmas prez le.. hmm.. nex thur go shoppin wit von.. haha.. nex wed go beach.. 2/6 outin.. den nex fri go pri sch tchr's hse.. haha.. gota b fun.. hais i miss mingying n pei en.. haz..

*confused* *unsure* *xu yao shi jian lai zheng ming yi qie*

joce n chen han

2004-11-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

hais siti n mariyanna.. a couple muz talk abt wad probs they r facin abt e r/s.. cannot lidat one side unhapie.. den dun wan tel e other person.. den both side oso suffer in silence.. u muz talk to her abt wad u feel mahs.. dun tink tat she dun care abt u even b4 u talk to her abt e prob.. lidat v unfair to her.. muz tel her n talk 1st.. den girl u oso.. shud tink abt whether ur actions wil affect him anot.. if u dun wan b too open or stuff.. muz tel him 1st.. make sure he urdstd.. hais ur nd to TALK mahs.. no communication in a r/s.. how ur goin to last??.. hais.. i oso duno wad to sae le lars.. duno wad exactly goin on btw u 2.. cant help.. but all i can sae is talk to each other.. okies??.. hope u both work tinks out lars k.. jie wish u 2 all e best..

hmm.. told him le..

2004-11-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.. wonder if i shudnt hav done tat.. but aiya.. wads done is done.. hmm.. c how lo.. haha finally got my sim card le.. can msg comfortably liaos.. lol.. haha so lame now viewin webcam wit fabian lol.. he so lame haha.. keep askin me show my face.. haha fal u privileged kz.. other ppl wan me show i dun de.. u my gor den i show u.. hahahas.. lol..

hmm morn wen to watch U19 finals.. omg jurong central a.k.a sqs rawks!! haha.. i prefer to cal dem sqs.. haha.. best siaa my ou xiangs.. lol.. played well.. won uul 1 set.. juz as i predicted.. ahahs.. *bhb* lol.. but ya really v nice match..

hmm.. oso nth much to sae le.. cannot sae too private stuff cuz someone wil read.. hahas.. tata..

SQS u RAWK!!

hais.. depressed

2004-11-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

hais.. mood swing agn.. damn sianx.. hais.. duno wads wron wit me.. muz b tat idiot.. hais omg.. im bein too affected le.. hais cham cham..

hmm semi finals dae..

2004-11-27T15:27:00.000+08:00

hais sianx.. at home nth to do.. no mood to study.. hais i hope later finally wil go get my replacement sim card.. my sms really burst liao.. hais sianx..

hmm juz now went to watch U19 semi finals.. nice siaa.. jurong central vs st hildas.. hahaha jc win.. yea.. lol.. althou i support both.. but im more 4 jc.. hehex.. but after e match saw edwin de face.. tinkhe cried.. hais i c liao i feel guilty tat i supported jc while grace n jy supported shs.. tink edwin really v disappointed.. hmm jialiang was great.. haha.. he thunder.. but i tink jc performed even beta.. hehex.. im biased i admit tat.. lol..

hais i wan chat wit *.. if not v sianz..

hmm nex wk me bz siaa..
mon : mornin trnn
nite scorer
tue : mornin frenly
aftn trnn
nite scorer
wed : mornin trnn
nite scorer
fri : morn trnn
nite scorer

hais wil die seh.. hey my maids.. mariam mariyana n sophia... haha.. beta go cook bu bing 4 me n siti.. lol.. we both e schedule same same siaa... wil die seh.. haha.. den siti stil got mariyana to take care of him.. lol.. me dun hav lehs.. so poor tink.. haha.. k im bein lame..
hmm tue frenly wit ghim moh.. me not as confident of winnin le lehs.. cuz of josephine.. hais.. hopefully we win wors.. n c gals muz win oso..

andvball jiayou!

chattin wit him..

2004-11-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i really enjoyin chattin wit *.. v fun.. hahas.. i wil owaes look 4ward to e nex time we chat agn.. haz..

anw.. hais everywhere achin.. tis 2 trnn all do pt.. bleahs.. hmm.. i wan go c U19 de match oso.. tis sat n sun.. semi finals n finals.. shud b nice.. haz.. den scorer course tml startin le.. hmm.. wonder how it'l b lke.. guess wil make more new frenz de.. hahas luke.. sad 4 u seh.. dun tink u can recover in time to go c e finals lehs.. hahaz.. den aiya.. u oso missed e ur chance 4 e scorer course.. sad.. hais.. hahaha.. i so evil..lol.. anw.. u take care la.. stupid pig.. find ur hp n recover soon.. haz.. take care..

hais recently v sianz.. duno y.. juz feel v sianx.. lke keep havin mood swings.. hais.. den after trnn.. even more tired.. if trnn kena kp.. my mood wil b worst.. lke tat dae lidat.. hais.. muz b bcuz of tat tink.. haz..

den ivan msg me chat.. den msn oso chat.. woa wen he tel me tat tink.. i was shocked.. din expect tat lors.. haz.. but.. ya.. lidat lor.. kk nth to sae le..

he accused me agn..

2004-11-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

hais so tired.. sianx now.. trnn todae.. haix sucked.. raymond n jon came.. e queensway gal oso came.. hais trnn startin is da fang.. after tat zp suddenly ask limei set to me den ask me set back.. he c afew times liao he say "ruyi de shou xing shi xue ni de" walau i was lke so shocked lors.. i mean.. last time he sae me.. i tot ruyi explained liao he oso noe is not me teach her e wrong settin de.. now he came accuse me agn.. walau so not fair lors.. den i said "bu shi wo jiao ta de! " he said "wo mei you shuo ni jiao. ke shi shi ta xue ni de" wa its lke.. so not fair lor.. she nv cum learn from me lor.. its lke.. wen u make mistakes is unconscious de ma.. den she lidat.. walau i so hurt.. i juz wanted to cry lor.. after tat he gave instructions 4 e nex tink to do.. b gals were lke wad happened.. wa e more they ask e more i wanted to cry.. anqi stil hug me omg.. i cudnt take it.. juz cry.. hais.. den after tat trnn oso sian sian.. den oso keep rainin.. kns.. did pt twice.. skippin 800 liao.. train awhile.. rain.. hais pt agn.. sit-ups.. bench thingy.. 80 each.. den go train.. amk b boys came.. so b boys frenly we train at e other court.. hais den rain agn.. heavier n heavier.. coach nv tel us stop.. so we cont.. den finally rain til we all drenched le.. den stop.. hais after tat.. gambin den liaos.. haha.. 4 dens of dai dee.. lol.. hmm.. after tat.. aiya limei oso bad mood.. cuz of yvon.. hais.. den.. hmm.. lidat la.. now v tired.. v sianx.. lke mood swing lidat.. bleahs..

its not fair to accuse me lidat.. im oso tryin my best.. u dun praise us 4 our gd performances but u blame me 4 c gals mistakes.. its so unfair..

*sianx..*
*hurt..*

fri..

2004-11-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lke oso sum daes nv blog liao?.. hmm.. tat dae agst volleysport.. i really njoyed myself.. lol.. althou we lost n tio hu-t.. haz.. i enjoyed it.. it was really a great experience.. haz.. e 1st ball i blocked i blocked out lors.. lol.. so surprised i had e ability to block out.. haz.. after tat touched alot of balls wen blockin.. haz.. hmm.. fun.. hopefully we can win phs on mon.. yeps..

fuck siaa i lost my hp.. kns i lost it ytd.. haix.. sucks lors.. my 7250.. idiot.. i can only chg my hp lke nex yr.. haix.. bo pian.. hav ta use 8310.. sucks seh hang out wit yvon too much.. oso bcum lke her so scatterbrain liao.. hahaz.. haix.. hopefully me dad wun scold..

limei.. thanx 4 helpin me to go bac to find my hp.. n pei me go police station.. thanx.. limei's neighbour.. thanx 4 helpin me find my hp too.. haz.. e rest of vball gals.. thanx 4 showin ur concern too.. haz.. i lke say til lke losin one hp v big deal hor.. lol.. but really v big deal ma.. i 1st time lost my hp lors.. haix.. kk la.. nth to sae le..

14th oct.. agst VS..

2004-11-14T08:52:00.000+08:00

lke quite sum time nv blog le.. anw.. todae.. we gona play agst volleysport.. nervous seh.. hope wun tio thrash.. den c gals wil play agst hongkar at 9.20.. now is 9 btw.. hahaz.. den later meet grace at hougang pt mac 4 breakfast.. den go hougang sports hall.. hmm.. c gals is out liao.. but.. nvm la.. ur did a great job.. den tat dae agst WRS.. tot they wil win de.. den c them all cry.. wa.. duno wad to do.. haz.. tink our batch de all wun cry le.. cuz all used to losin liao.. lol.. hmm..

den ytd mornin went gym wit grace n von.. cool sia.. hahaz.. lifted weights n stuff.. fun.. lol.. wan go agn.. haz.. but din sweat much.. lolx.. cuz dun dare to overdo.. later todae pain.. den cham.. haz.. but it was fun.. yea.. den went to watch c gals agst xms in e aftn wit von.. haix saw derrick.. ivan oso.. dne i dun dare c e rest liao.. alamak.. they walk in from one door.. den walk to e other door.. den left liao.. hahaz.. wierd sia..haix hope they wun go todae.. if not i wil v nervous.. duno how to react.. den later cannot play well.. die.. haz..

hmm oso nth much le..

hmm vball . bball boys clash

2004-11-10T20:07:00.000+08:00

haz funny.. todae bball boys n vball boys clash.. lame sia.. all bcuz of 2 guai lan coaches.. stupid sia.. we gals get alon wit dem so well de.. den our boys n dem clash.. haz.. funnie..

hmmm i wana get back my skills.. tis sun agst VS liao lors.. i dun wan kena thrash.. i hope we can win either vs or phs.. den get into round 2.. lke so wad lors.. juniors can cont we 1st rd kena kick out.. hais.. duno lars.. i wan my skills back.. i wan us to get into rd 2.. i wan b gals to improve.. i wan us to get into nationals nex yr.. haix..

*hais.. sorta depressed...*

sianz im losin my position

2004-11-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

haix.. todae trnn.. sianz.. so tired now.. no energy to move abt.. haix.. sucks im losin all my skills.. my spikin totally kns.. everytime jump up.. my hand wun tui zhi wan.. sux lors.. haix.. den my servin oso lousier n lousier.. now e only good skill i stil hav is my receivin.. haix.. den karmun oso improvin alot.. based on my tis 2 daes trnn de performance n if km cont to improve.. v soon she wil take my place liaos.. haix.. sucks lors.. if i stil dun buck up.. i may not even get to play subset.. haix.. sianz.. den zp oso got tink abt puttin her as blocker.. haix.. among me grace n km.. my ht cfm lose out de mahx.. haix.. duno lars.. i dun mind playin subset.. dun let me sit bench can liaos.. but i stil tink e best formation is km play main spike den jy subset.. cuz jy prefer tat position oso.. haix duno lars.. my skills beta cum back.. wad e f..

den tis morn.. i pon geog to go watch c gals.. glad they won.. den rush bac 4 math.. haix i tired.. dun wan type liaos..

*tired...*
*disappointed..*
*depressed.*

hmm.. limei hit jeannie..

2004-11-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae.. trnn was great.. haz real trnn sia.. now so freakin tired.. if not 4 ren wo ao you i go slp liao los.. hahaz.. hmm.. at 1st train til quite fine.. den rain.. is suddenly v heavy lors.. weather so wierd.. den everyone pia 4 e balls.. den rush inside.. haz.. funny.. me was so gake lors.. i train til v shuang de.. haz.. after tat.. i ask zp train us e same tink jon train us tat dae.. den he trained.. but me sit at e side 1st.. cuz grace play 1st.. after tat my turn.. woa now on e court.. me n grace really hav to cover a v big area los.. haix so insecure e feelin.. lke so empty lidat.. anw..after tat.. we train 1st ball.. den jie1 fang4 qiu2.. den zp left liaos.. B gals agst B boys match.. hahaz fun sia.. e guys todae v on form.. so really played til v shuang wit dem.. althou they keep thunder.. haz.. den limei todae oso chao on form sia.. lolx.. her 1st ball zai arhx.. haz.. but after tat sth funny happened.. or.. izit funny? hahaz i duno.. its lke.. jeannie rolled on e floor.. cuz din receive e ball.. den her mistake we sae alot of times le ma.. she keep repeatin.. den limei was playin la.. she kick e ball at jeannie.. but suay suay tio her face.. lolx.. den jeannie cry.. haz.. after tat ok liaos.. after trnn.. me von n limei walkin to bus stop.. limei oso cry.. cuz she fell bad.. lol.. silly limei.. hahaz.. limei.. dun cry le lars.. not ur fault.. den u oso dun mean it de.. dun feel bad le lors.. jeannie oso ok le mahx.. ya..

anw.. b gals... if ur r readin tis.. wh i dun tink wil b possible.. haz.. we played great todae.. jiayou! we cont lidat.. we'l get into nationals nex yr.. haz..jiayou..

c gals.. jiayou 4 tml's match.. i cant go support ur.. but hope to hear good news.. yea.. all e best..

hahaz abt tis morn's hot date.. lolx.. victor, jason, boon hong, zuo jie, teng kiat, puay fen at me.. haz.. funnie.. tink is jason n boon hong go take coupon 1st.. lolx.. but only took one sheet.. den its lke they all wan sausage muffin.. den e coupon not enuf.. hahaz.. so boon hong n victor went to take.. den they came bac empty-handed.. lolx.. we ask wad happen.. hahaz boon hong said victor walk til counter liao den hum.. he said dun wan la paiseh.. den he walked bac to our table.. lolx.. (we were at mac anw..) den i go help victor take lors.. haz.. after tat .. funie.. cuz e 7 of us order tgtr.. den e coupon is lke.. got free hashbrown or orabge juice.. hahaz so all 7 of us took hashbrown.. hahaz den wen e food came.. e whole tray juz hashbrowns.. i even took pic wit dem.. lolx.. funnie.. hahaz.. den after tat.. everybody eat finish liaos.. stil got 3 hashbrown left.. den we realised.. they gave us 3 extra hashbrowns.. hahaz.. we din wan to waste food.. so i suggested.. we play zong1 ji2 mi4 ma3.. kena den eat one hashbrown.. lol i suay suay kena twice arhx.. hahaz.. den i sabo zj.. cuz he was away ma.. den i bluff him is he kena.. lolx.. siao lors.. me ate one meal wit 3 hashbrowns lors.. lolx.. full lke siao.. hahaz.. ya.. juz had a great time wit dem lors.. lolx..

haz i wrote alot liaos.. oso nth le.. hahaz.. tata..

haz..

2004-11-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ruyi... saw ur blog le.. hahaz.. touched seh.. lolx.. hmm.. glad everytink ok liao lo.. haz.. hmm mayb i oso sorta forced u la.. yepx.. hahaz.. me ur num 1 jie.. u got how many jies?? lolx.. hahaz i din wan to let u noe de lors.. den c u wil jealous not weneva jiaxin disturb u.. muahaha.. lolx.. wad made u tink u wun b num 1.. we stil same bdae lehx.. alamak.. silly pig.. lolx.. me not angry lars.. i realise i oso got at fault.. ya.. haz i wun b disappointed le.. unless u disappoint me agn lars.. lolx.. yea.. hahaz hapie arhx?.. hmm okies la.. hahaz.. ok la quite la.. lolx..

haz tml got hot date agn.. muahaha.. lolx.. wit e same few ppl.. i tink its gona b great fun too.. haz.. i cant believe im so lucky to b in such a great claz.. i mean.. e guys r so great 2b wit.. ppl dun take me as flirt.. but juz tat they r willin to hav breakfast tgtr early in e morn.. its lke.. hmm.. me sec 1 n 2 claz oso nv lidat.. haz mayb cuz i din try bax.. haz.. now im glad wors.. tat once agn im in such a great claz.. i love u 3/6.. haz.. duno y i suddenly wil talk abt tis.. lolx.. nvm..

hmm tml got trnn.. hmm.. hopefully wun rain agn.. den we'l get proper trnn.. or if really muz rain.. hopefully jonathan got cum.. hahaz.. den he'l train us.. heex.. anqi.. glad ur bac 4 trnn.. haz..

ruyi..

2004-11-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

ruyi.. if i sounded harsh im sorie.. if im pokin my nose into stuff i shudnt.. wel sorie too.. juz tat in my heart among all my meis ur num 1.. (sorie arhx joce, rachael n jiaxin.. lolx.. ) den in e past got stuff i'l tel u.. oso cried my heart in front of u liaos.. u oso said other den ur 1st ***** u wud tel me other stuff.. now lidat.. i dun feel good abt it.. disappointed.. sad.. ya.. den if i wan to noe stuff.. i muz ask other ppl.. no pt oso.. lke wad i said in ur blog.. no pt.. as thou u cant b bothered to tel me.. but wad to do.. since u dun wan tel me.. i oso nth to sae liaos.. but i'l owaes b here if u nd me.. (but guess u oso dun really nd me la hur..) u'l stil b my mei.. i wun let anr grace-jiaxin thingy happen agn.. anw.. jiayou 4 tue's match.. if ur can beat dunman ur wil go into 2nd rds.. jiayou.. me cant go support ur cuz got lesson.. but all e best..

2004-11-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

hahaz todae was so fun.. in e morn had a hot date!! lolx.. went to mac for breakfast wit boon hong! jason!! vIctOr!!! n tengkiat, deborah n li mei.. lolx.. had fun at mac.. chatted n enjoyed ourselves.. heex.. 3/6 guys so fun to b wit.. victor!! lolx.. hmm.. den went for chem lesson after tat.. den played bball wit limei, victor, jason, boon hong, tengkiat, kok yeow, yong chun n edmund.. after tat stil play captain's ball.. lolx.. den go lunch tgtr.. den me n limei went to library.. play "wei qi".. lolx.. den othello... hahaz funny sia.. i won limei.. hahaz.. den go trnn.. haix trnn sianx.. rain agn.. but after tat wen playin in canteen.. jonathan came den coach us.. really coach lors.. real trnn.. shuang sia.. he keep spikin.. we stand in a circle keep receivin.. got me limei jingyi grace n small von.. yepx.. so long nv hav tis kinda real trnn liaos.. song.. hahaz.. hmm.. after tat play soccer in canteen.. lolx.. i nv knew soccer was so fun! hahaz.. me limei karmun rachael yvonne n chen han.. rachael is pro sia.. lolx.. yea.. todae was e 1st time in my life i was so sporty.. lolx.. hmm.. guess tats all bax..

c gals jiayou 4 tml.. i noe ur wil win.. n sorie i wun b able to go support ur on tue.. ur agst dunman high.. cuz e freakin match is at 10.40 in e morn n i hav lessons in sch.. haix.. yea.. anw.. tml jiayou.. thrash si ta men..

[aVb rawKs]

jiaxin came to my hse..

2004-11-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae.. 3 hrs of chem.. 1st block was so sian.. in e avt.. i dun urdstd anytink lors.. make me even more determined to drop chem.. haix.. hmm.. den after sch.. li mei came my hse.. den we went hougang sports hall tgtr.. to watch c gals.. they played well.. yea.. hahaz wen rachael serve.. me shout 'chio bu'.. lolx.. den limei join in to ga jiao her.. lolx.. funny.. haz.. den shaun n chen han tel us stop.. later affect her den she kai bu guo.. lolx.. funny.. den after tat me n jiaxin pei limei to amk.. shaun oso.. walau stupid idiot.. play lke siao on e bus.. lolx.. me kena sexually haressed arhx.. lolx..
after tat meet ruyi, joce, chenhan n pakleng at cp.. go eat.. hahaz den keep ga jiao-in ruyi.. lolx.. funny.. den saw sum of jiaxin's frenz.. hahaz.. hmm.. din manage to buy a pair of blue heart de dangling earrins... mUahAha.. lolx..

haix ruyi ar ruyi.. u stil dun wan to tel me.. disappoint me la u.. haiyo.. i tel u evrytink tink.. den u tel me nth.. haix make me sad.. u arhx.. nex time dun tel u anytink liaos.. i rather tel jiaxin.. at least she tels me stuff.. not lke u..

hahaz den jiaxin join our family liaos.. lolx.. she's sophia a.k.a small chick.. lolx.. yea.. anw.. tml got trnn.. haix finally.. i oso dun lke to miss trnn.. hahaz den early in e morn i got hot date!! lolx.. no larx.. haz.. wit boon hong jason n victor only mahx.. muahaha.. lolx.. den got puay fen n limei too.. yepx.. we goin mac 4 breakfast le dne go sch 4 lesson.. yepx.. omg victor is goin!!!! lolx.. hahaz.. hmm.. kkz bax.. nth to say le.. haz.. tata..

finally over!!

2004-11-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

*phew* the O level express chi paper finally over le.. haz.. so stressed sia.. haix lost 6 marks liaos.. but aiya wad to do.. oso over liaos.. but got remedial.. hopefully only for 1 wk.. not 2 wks.. hahaz but oso can miss mornin trnn.. so.. hmm not to bad after all.. hahaz..

anw.. todae was c gals 1st match.. agst jurong.. hmm.. won 1 out of 3 sets.. althou lost but im proud of dem.. cuz ch told me they played v well.. n judgin from e score.. it was close.. so they really tried their best.. n im glad.. so jocelyn n rachael.. if ur r readin... well done!! jie proud of u..
ruyi i nv mention u cuz i oreadi write in ur blog liaos.. so dun wan praise u agn.. later ur head big... ahahas.. lolx..

hmm.. honestly from e bottom of my heart.. i stil lke him.. silly but cant help it.. sum times wil wonder wen is he gona get tired of his stead agn.. wen is he gona dump her.. but i cant help but wonder too.. tat mayb its diff wit tis gal.. perhaps they're gona last.. im not saddened by tis anymore.. cuz i've already given up hope on him.. n already let go le.. but tis qns wud pop into my mind now n den.. guess tats cuz i haven truly forgotten.. but im copin.. n i tink im copin quite well.. heex.. well.. abt e other person.. i tink is really juz a passin crush.. a passin infatuation.. yea.. soon wil b over.. haz..

c gals

2004-10-31T15:11:00.000+08:00

okaz i dun hav much time to blog.. cuz of e paper tml.. well ppl.. wish me luck.. i definitely need it.. n to c gals.. jiayou 4 ur 1st match tml.. haz.. (is tml rite??) lolx.. jiayou.. n do avb proud kz.. tml we cant go support ur.. but e nex few matches i promise go kx.. so long as i no lessons n got ppl pei me.. hahaz.. muz go c my 3 meis play.. keke..
rachael.. jiayou.. kai qiu improvin liaos.. hahaz.. kai si ta men..
ruyi.. 1st ball receivin gettin beta.. so keep up wit it..
joce.. haz jump spike not bad ar.. 4 those kao wang qiu.. i rmbr agst sqs u de fen wit tat.. jiayou.. ur a left handed setter.. so use tat to ur fullest advantage..

meis meis jiayou bax.. da jie support ur morally.. den ur oso muz support me to lehx.. hahaz.. esp 4 e papar tml.. kkz gtg study liaos.. tata..

2004-10-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

hmm its been sum time.. anws.. mon is O level paper le.. so fast.. im not exactly prepared yet.. haix woried tat i eudnt score well agn.. bleahx.. den.. todae ms sek talked abt droppin subjects.. hmm.. im oso considerin of droppin a science too.. haix.. duno.. cant cope..
juz now sqs c gals agst our sch.. c gals won 5-0.. lolx.. sqs deproved alot le.. hahaz their num 10 v cute!! lolx.. but quite attitude.. their num 9 even worst.. so.. well.. extremely attitude tat type de.. yepx.. hmm.. but their seniors frenlier.. hahaz.. sec 2 de mai.. n anr gal.. duno her name.. haz.. den me n karmun lke play til not v good.. throw face sia.. lolx..

anw.. m i really fallin..?.. duno..

lousy day

2004-10-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

sux.. todae really sucked.. i was sti ok wen i saw my results.. wen i knew abt my position in claz.. haix totally demoralised.. n tat stupid bo hui had to cum suan me.. stil had to ask me abt my position rite in my face.. n if tat wasnt enuf.. kaiyi had to join in too.. i mean.. wad e lorx.. bo hui isnt from my claz.. its none of his business.. but kaiyi had to join in.. wa kaox lorx.. i totally cudnt take it.. juz left e claz n cried.. haix only singhwa stood up 4 me.. im so grateful 4 tat lorx.. bo hui asked me.. singhwa jux pointed middle finger rite into his face.. bo hui was lke " wa singhwa u lke sharon arhx?" singhwa said "ya i lke sharon, i love sharon so wad" or sth lidat... not in e bgr sense but fren sense.. haix im touched tat sh tried to help me.. thanx singhwa.. me really grateful.. anw.. after tat puayfen limei agnes n teng kiat n i went opp tgtr.. they lended me comfort n support wen i was alone.. ya.. so thanx alot guys.. really grateful to ur too..

den trnn sucked too.. zp asked us hu played vball dunrin exam period.. wen i said ruyi n joce played wit me.. he said "ok i'l hold u 4 it" in chi la but its lke.. halos.. everybody exam period.. v long nv train.. skills sure wil lousy de lorx.. den ruyi n joce skills deprove is my fault?? kaox wen we played tgtr they got mistakes i oso got say de lorx.. wa kaox say til lke my fault lidat.. sux.. den lian wad dui xing.. more lke lian c gals lorx.. kns.. so borin.. haix..

im so disappointed wit my results.. i dun care im goin to totally devote my time to studyin.. vball.. frenx.. i have to buck up n get my basics rite by end of tis yr.. i dun care.. nex yr.. im gona push myself to e top.. im not settin my targets as high as top 10.. my claz is a smartass claz.. sux.. top 15th i hapie liaos.. sec 2 i oso got 15 in claz.. haix.. i beta buck up.. n prove to sh, jh n gd tat im not as lousy as they owaes tink i am..

ooh~~

2004-10-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

hahaz... i was SO surprised wen i saw fabian's frenster piC!! lolx.. hAhaz.. hmm.. not his main pic.. muz view others.. ppl go c la hor.. hahaz.. i so surprised lehx.. he put he n anqi tat pic.. keke.. i almost 4get abt it liaos.. haz... anw i find it cool.. haz.. sweet n cool.. keke.. such a couple.. haz..

anw.. hmm sing idol todae was great... slyvester rocked!! haz.. he sang e song so well los.. haz.. " i dun wana piss a thing".. i dun wana miss sly!! lolx.. taufik was great too.. althou he received negative comments.. maia was good to.. haz.. hmm.. actu everyone of dem was good los.. even chris performed well todae.. haz.. from now on it'l b so diff to eliminate ppl le.. they're all good los.. ya..

hmm... its hard to believe its has been so long.. ____ said tat no more liaos.. but i feel lke.. hmm.. stil hav lehx.. hmm duno.. oso no action.. so.. doesnt matter.. ya.. hmm.. duno wad to sae le.. well.. hav a great trnn tml b gals.. i hope.. ya..

<=sharOn=>

results

2004-10-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

oh man.. my L1R5 28 lorx.. kns.. in e aftn wen was at jurong pt wit limei n von.. asked singhwa n jiahao to help me check.. they told me 30 lorx.. idiots.. dun even noe how to count properly.. duno how their L1R5 stil can 18 n 19.. haz.. but anw.. thanx guyz.. hmm.. den limei n von came my hse to check reults for ourselves.. haz.. limei so disgustin lorx.. got 10.. lolx.. jason oso.. hmm.. den von got 29.. oso kena bluff by sh n jh.. they at 1st said 23.. hai her suddenly sian diao.. haix we 2 nex yr sure bcum diamond de liaox.. cham.. haix muz start studyin le.. i cannot cont lidat... bleahx.. i tis time eng oso no A1 lorx.. sux.. 70 only.. bleahx.. anw.. its over le.. haix..

okies.. tis aftn.. 1stly i play com play til 12 den realise i was late.. haz.. i was supposed 2 meet von at 12.15 at cp.. hahaz.. late den nvm lorx.. von even later den me.. came at 12.50 lo.. alamak.. lolx.. n we were supposed 2 meet limei at 1 at amk.. lolx.. den rush rush rush.. cal limei.. she oso not ready yet.. hahaz.. limei sumore late oso.. lolx.. came at 1.30.. after tat funny lorx.. me n von dashed into e tran wen e doors abt to close.. limei dun dare den she left outside.. lolx.. funny sia.. hahaz.. den met her at yck agn... after tat we went lot1.. den jurong pt.. den compass pt.. den my hse.. hahaz.. funny.. talked alot on e way.. but our shoppin mood was affected by our anxiety to find out our results.. haz.. bleahx.. but had quite a great time wit dem larx.. juz din go take neoprints.. haix wasted.. haz.. nex time bax.. yepx..

hmm.. tml sch starts agn.. but heard from sh tat tml de timetable quite slack.. after assembly.. listen to 2hrs talk.. den got e social ettiquete (how to spell?? lolx..) workshop.. hahaz im quite interested to find out wad they'l teach.. hahaz.. okies larx.. all e best to everyone for tml..

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hmm...

2004-10-19T10:54:00.000+08:00

okies.. ytd nite.. suddenly xiang tong le.. deleted all his msgs.. hmm.. its stil a long way b4 i get over him.. but at least.. im on my way le.. yea.. im not goin 2b affected by his nic anymore.. hmm.. jux now on e bed.. i was tinkin.. he sae he hated chanel alot.. den now.. can so good wit her.. form e gang the attitudes.. do everytink tgtr n stuff.. i mean.. realy say til v good frenx lorx.. i suddenly felt tat it was kinda hyprocritical.. hmm.. duno..
kinda wana wish him all e best wit his new stead.. but feel kinda stupid for tinkin tis way on e other hand.. hmm.. duno larx.. trnn resumin.. once our skills r back.. we're gona thrash dem.. yea..

wad e....

2004-10-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

wad e fuck lorx.. his nic chg agn.. "so hapie tat u gave me a chance.. i wil treasure it de.."
wad e lorx.. omg.. i c liao e hurt cums back agn... its so unfair.. i wonder hu e hell is tat ucky gal.. omg.. haix.. im so sad.. haix...

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haiz.. confused..

2004-10-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

haix.. his nic chg agn.. haiz.. "i dun mean to suspect u de darlin.. plz plz... i juz wan one more chance.." tis is so hurtin lorx.. its lke.. he lurves tis gal so much more den me tat he bothered to suspect e gal.. haix.. n we break only 18 days n he already has a new stead... wad e fuck lorx.. its so unfair to me.. haix.. den its lke.. only so little time has passed... he oso lidat put his details of his new r/s into his msn nic.. its lke.. i can n wil c de lorx.. he thrust the knife into my heart liao stil twist it ard.. wound upon wound lorx.. haix i c liao really feel so sad.. its so unfair to me.. n wads worst is i cant bring myself to b angry at him for doin tis to me or hate him.. haix.. i stil lke him so much.. haiz.. really feel lke cryin.. haiz..

anw.. jux now went to watch white chicks wit hadi, shaun n my sis.. haz funny.. really nice.. den went to take neoprint.. haz.. funny.. quite a nice time spent wit dem.. thanx guys...

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haiz.. confused..

2004-10-18T12:23:00.000+08:00

haiz.. juz saw his new nic.. "sori darlin... i noe my mistake liao... plz 4giv me.... i just wan one more chance..." haiz.. i keep tellin myself its not possible.. but i really cant help but wonder.. if it may b me.. haiz.. mayb he fell for one of his ex agn..? so its not me.. haiz.. i really duno.. so confused now.. he nv msg me.. msn nv chat wit me.. sumhow it seems impossible tat it'l b me.. but.. haiz.. i cant help but hope.. haiz.. i feel so silly.. but cant help it.. wad shud i do.. me approach him to chat is impossible.. i dun wan him to tink tat i stil lke him.. but.. haiz.. i duno la.. so confused right now..

2004-10-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

wa piang so pissed now.. kns.. me pms liaox.. haiz suddenly dun feel lke goin beach tml liaox.. den intend to go watch white chicks wit ruyi n joce.. den i nd to cfm asap wit von abt tml de.. ruyi oso dn wan faster cfm wit me.. make me irritated.. haiz i now pms.. small tink oso get irritated lorx.. sianx.. den bcuz of tis affect my mood.. play pool wit lionel oso keep losin.. stupid.. sianx diao la.. haiz.. sux... i hate pms..
ruyi faster cfm wit me........

2004-10-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

hmm.. juz sum stuff to share...

sUmtImes e +RutH hUrts...
bUt sUm+tiMes it HeAls..
weN i+ cUms frOm tHe he@r+...

lOvE iS lKe fiNe s@nD...
gRasP i+ ToO tiGhtLy aNd it'L sLip +HrU uR fiNgeRs...
cUp i+ gEntLy aNd it'L filL +He eMptY vOids oF uR hEar+...

(hmm.. e above is only if u found e rite person...?)

+heRe iS nO gRea+eR p@in...
dEn +o lOvE sUmoNe so DeepLy ...
aNd nV hav +a+ lOvE reTuRned...

iF yOu luRvE sUmoNe...
Le+ hIm/heR gO...
iF He/sHe cUms baCk...
he/sHe's heRe tO stAy...

n finally...

fOrgIveNesS me@ns...
le+TinG gO oF tHe hUr+fuL meMoRieS...
aNd mOviNg oN wi+ uR oWn h@pPineS..

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hahaz 1st entry...

2004-10-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

hahaz.. hmm.. firstly.. muz thank ruyi.. hahaz.. she help me gao tim tis whole think de.. thanx ar mei.. heex.. well.. hmm.. now playin pool wit lionel.. den chattin on fone wit him oso.. hahaz funny sia.. he keep losin to me.. muahaha.. lolx.. buck up lei lionel.. if not no challenge lei.. muahaha.. ok i too bhb le.. haz..
hmm.. i juz realised tat todae is 17th Oct.. n my O level express chi paper is on 1st Nov.. haiz so near le.. muz start studyin agn lo.. bleahx.. hmm.. sch oso startin le.. den got post exam activities.. haz our claz takin part in captain's ball.. yepx..
hmm ytd went to watch nEw pOliCe s+oRy.. omg dAnIeL wU so shuai!! hahaz.. so envy his galfren in e novie sia.. hehex.. lolx.. hmm.. e movie plot was good oso.. e story v touchin.. v sad.. haiz e 9 police guys so ke lian.. ya.. daniel wu so shuai.. fall in love wit him liaox... lolx.. den ytd go take neoprint wit sis.. haz..
hmm.. tml goin beach.. yea.. so long nv go le.. heex.. lookin 4ward to it.. haz.. but sad limei not goin.. ya..